Me being me, I have decorated my car for Halloween with window gel clings. However, now I’m wondering if the decoration clashes with my Franciscan rosary.
I know that people will look at my car and assume all sorts of things, but they would all probably be wrong. I am neither Catholic or Goth, although I am well-versed in guilt and appreciate the subtleties of black eyeliner. I am not trying to be ironic or make any kind of statement.
But, why do I care what people think, anyway??
I find that as I get older I am starting to care more and more. Not that I care about making a good impression so everyone will like me, I care about making an accurate impression so if someone doesn’t like me they will for the right reasons. I guess because I am misunderstood so often lately I have become more conscious about how I present myself. However, presenting myself accurately can be a challenge. The corporate, smiling, insurance agent person I am expected to be at work clashes with the sarcastic, I-don’t-give-a-damn-about-insurance person that I am whenever I am not at work. I want to be helpful, but I don’t want to (and will not) kiss anyone’s ass. I will work hard and be a team player, but will not accept being taken advantage of.
So, the skull and rosary really do accurately reflect who I am, but the people who would appreciate that are the ones that already know me well.
Halloween probably isn’t the best time to contimplate such an existential dilemma. I should be worrying about a costume, a fake representation of myself, not what I project normally.
Or, is what I wear every day the real costume?
Ha!! Sorry, couldn’t keep a straight face after that one!!
Enough with the psychobabble. I like skulls and rosaries. The end.
